the Girl
strong mind.weak heart.
affinity for shoulders.
craves for desserts, cakes and pastries.
notices visually stimulating objects.
catches gossips, constant evesdropping.
detests smelly armpit and stinky feet.
endorses dove conditioner.
tries to live up to her surname.
designed for pointed shoes.
Thursday, November 17, 2005
alone but not alone
hmm.this feeling of being alone has been in my mind.come home to an empty room.but i refuse to go home.will i really be mad if stay here?hmmm..weird that u made such a comment.people are always busy..but it's ok.for i m an onlny child, i can be alone.i mean..i'm used to it after all.isnt it?not much of difference whether i am alone here or there.it's all the same.i can never understand myself.i m petty.i m irritating.definitely not craving any attention.so dont give me any pls.just let me be alone.well.u thot i love to be alone, isnt it? where's that familiar person?talk to me.,where have u been?u told me u'll be here for me whenever i need u.but are u?well.it's just some lousy expectation from me.perhaps.i am not sure.it's time to be independent.isnt it?how i crave to be alone.the ideal has changed.from tt of two, to that of the search.well.it's how life has come round to.and i hope i will come round too.no wonder there are so many workacholics.i understand it.i do.i just refuse to admit.i need to wake up.shake me up will you.just do.leave me alone.i help myself.each for his own.go.dont turn back.i need him.do i?in a state of stillness.everything is running here in me, but i m calm.i hafta be.i know what i want.and i know i cannot get it.hmmm.they say that he is confused.so am i.when the world is all against you.i will rise.wait for me.up and down.self therapy, i have my medicine.it's not dark.it's just spoken.
dictated by the Queen at 3:33 PM
