Monday, January 29, 2007
just another disagreement?
it's just a bad option to speak to him about my so-called future.
because i've given it lots of thoughts.
and these are the things you cant afford to do after u work permanently,
start a family,
give birth..
or just simply get older.
because i dint get to hear that u feel i made any sense at all
only those constant reminders that i got to find a "proper job"
so what constitutes a "proper job"?
sth which made you work within a confine area,
nothing which will exactly excite my mind most of the time?
nothing to do with children, with designing, with fashion or travelling?
gosh.
i cant imagine.
well actually i can.
but i thought that
maybe i can do something about it.
maybe.i dint play sports
cant dance
din dare take up a course that i really love
and for once,
want to do sth i love before its too late..
and all i get is this.
cos i am not someone who is able to "dont mind everything"
i have expectations of myself
of people around me.
just dont call it nua-ing my time away.
i just want to be selfish and happy when i can.
you made it sound like that's less impt than what u can tell ur mum.
i know how terrible a girl i am.
and even a worse girlfriend.
but just dont let me feel stupid pls.
u're the first i told my options to,
and this happened.
i wldnt dare tell u any related next time.
dont you see it?
fatness is relative.
smartness is relative too.
so is hardworking-ness.
and height.
i hate the constraints of being an only child.
the burden of providing for parents, alone.
two person worked for one.
soon, one person soon hafta work for two.
i remember the times when u told me about ur plans for making those acrylic stands/shelves.
i liked that.
and you liked that.
and i liked that, that you liked that.
i know you will succeed, even if its not that.
i know what we both dislike.
we just wanna be happy, right?
i just realised i got very little time left.
i just realised:
i really enjoy dancing in the club, so what if its ugly?at least it feels good
i can save money and go bangkok and hongkong to see disneyland, without taking $ from parents
i dont have to sleep alot everyday
i can get the chance to be busy, happily busy too
i just have a problem of showing my displeasure, and i will argue whenever you have different opinion from me.
but there was a time when i argued and i saw the other perspective too..... i was most of the time convinced. i can be convinced. i can be controlled willingly too.
show me ur viewpoint. argue with me. fight it out with me. just dont keep quiet. i hate it. so do you.
so why?
it's not just another disagreement.
dictated by the Queen at 1:27 AM
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
lack of sleep
zzz
feel like i've never been so busy in my life before.
but of cos i've have.
woke up at 8+ to 9+am for the days below.
1.fri-DXO.
WAH.free free free.
and yar.
i was very fast down the stairs
slpt at 3+am2.sat-proj&supper&bowling
super tired.but my very first four daggers.
proud of myself.
slpt at 5am3.sun-work work work
stand the whole day
slpt at 12pm4.mon-lust2must
went
smu
tanjong pagar
chinatown
ntu
tired.
slpt at 5am5. tues-sch:suay to the max day!
couldnt climb out of bed
my printer was the only damn slow at fal
rushed to proj,
but everyone havent reach
struggle to keep awake at class
prof thot we only spent 1hr on our ppt slides
nearly was so frustrated
went smu
chinatown
farrer park
rochor
smu
serangoon north
and had to queue for bathroom to bathe at 2+am.
walau.
slept at 3+am6. wed-lust2must bazaar at smu!
heavy stuff
so happy people actually said our packaging is pretty!
and lots n lots of cheeries!
and our namecards are finally done.
happy to see the cutest senior.
best of all, he rem me.
ha
and happy to sell things!!
i want to open a shop!!
and love our no discount policy.
sounds bad?but also means..whatever u buy, the value will not drop!
slping at 1+am?
the near future7.thurs (tmr)- bazaar again!!
hope not as tiring.
8.fri-work again.
stand stand stand!
at least got $$
and she wants to go dxo.
but i m tired.
but i dont mind.
see what my body says by tmr.
9.sat-my only free day the entire week.
i only want to go on dates!!!no work pls!
no sch related pls!
10. sun- work again n again!
at least.
its the last day of the month that i m working!!
hooray!!
so looking forward.
in the further than near future:GMS ppt!
FYP!
Lust2Must online!
dictated by the Queen at 9:20 PM
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Friday, January 19, 2007
observations @ work
1. there are mums who make their kids conform to gender sterotypes
"girls play with doll doll, not ultra-man."
ha.pls.
i grew up playing lego and construction toys.
cars and transformers.
risk, monopoly, cluedo.
and barbie.
so what's wrong?
2. mother-in-laws can get along with daughter-in-law
"oh..my daughter-in-law painted my nails for me."
that's how sweet.
suddenly this topic is getting more and more relevant to me.
but i paint nails for my mum!
ha
3. kids call pple our age aunties and uncles.
"auntie, auntie..how much is this?"
i hate this.
totally.
unless you're utterly cute. yar. i discriminate.
but well.if you're real young.i accept.i mean..i would call someone 15 years my senior auntie.
but!if u're already in sec sch, dont u dare.
and worse of them all, the parents refer to us as aunties and uncles.
those whom i will greet as aunties and uncles.
so what makes them?
grannies n grandpops to their children?
idiotic.
shit.we are getting old.
4. kids these days have weird names or spelling of names.
christel
racheal
Lindina
Xester
and many more which are forgettable.
ok. i know i wanna name my kids castle and summer.
laugh.
work is getting more sian.
but $$-tary compensation is good again.
now.
and now hafta entertain old aunties and uncles enquiries about canto dvds too.
and those feng feifei, chen baozhu, zhen ni, lu shan.
and like as if you sing me the songs i will know which song is it.
blah.
got to know more classic movies. english movies.
roman holiday, as you like it, the thin man, the postman came twice etc.
dictated by the Queen at 10:58 AM
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
the past few days
1. friday : the not intending to shop day.my 10mins later sms made me spent a lot!
but it was happy!
3 girls @ vivo.
and i ended up spending like...ard $130?
finally fulfilled my date with you!
and yes.so happy.
cos everyone bought stuff.
retail therapy just works for girls lar.
and it's G2000 who cheated most of my $$.
why does it have to have a final sale?!
3shirts + 1skirt set me back by $88.
q cheap per piece, but shit.althogether is ex!
and i bought a bra.
not the colour i m looking for,
nor the type i m finding.
BUT so comfy, and sale. so me n her got one each.
and i m still tempted by the forever21 blue one.
but it sorta serve no purpose.
and topshop!!
bought a purple one instead of white.
but happy!
and to think i was like "ewwww" when she took it for me to see.
trying clothes non stop.
food was good!
hokkien mee-s, toast, you tiao!
and ericia lee and ix shen was sitting behind us.
nothing special. but feel that its sweet.
and i rushed down to semb
only to realise the girl is not home yet!
aiyoh.
and yes.
borat and
scream 1.
we should do this more!!
free movies!ha
2. sat: notti little girl day and nights outgot whacked by a little girl.
naughty!
ok.
i m vengeful.and yes i know its just a small kid.
nights out to ktv at safara tpy.
i dint even know there is one there.
and understood a little more about billard
the worst part was to take bike.
cos i scared.and the 1st time i m taking 2person bike.
and i dont even know how to wear helmet lar.
yes.1st time i took 3 person bike.
hahhaha
and we ate bak kut teh.
was sian when i heard.
and it's the 2nd time i ate bak kut teh.
surprisingly nice!
got worldclass chilli somemore.
and hotties from 7-eleven!
home too late.
and was upset.
3. sunday and monday: stand non stop and cashier daytired. but luckily there's monetary compensation and
its so near my house.
and last night i got to see my boy.
4.tues: now. not in the mood to go class.got readings to do.
but book not even bought yet.
lunch haven eat.
class is in an hour's time.
and got report to write.
mailboxes to check.
and tmr work again.
sch again on thurs.
so hoping that fri can go dxo.
dictated by the Queen at 11:04 AM
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Thursday, January 11, 2007
the Suay day
yes.
the rushing through
the stayover
the struggling to type
the cannot help but fall asleep
the tedious headings
and matrixes
and the final rush.
contacts broke
hair clip broke
all hair like shit
smell like shit
eyes like shit
and it had to rain.
and sorry to jensen.
the always happy sounding HR.
and so it's all over.
without it actually happening.
and all things bully us.
the expensive calvin klein bra,
the men in our life,
the teens making us jealous in macs...
and rain and more rain.
dictated by the Queen at 5:52 PM
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Tuesday, January 09, 2007
(red)
1. (red)ness
traumatized by my own acts
gosh.
he said now
he has a 把柄
so i cant anyhow tickle him.
eeeeee
forever threatening me.
dictated by the Queen at 6:57 PM
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Sunday, January 07, 2007
the Expected
we were both so lucky yest!
happy that luck has finally changed.
please save.
and shit.why did i do it.
and i m about to go jogging.
how sickening a thought.
help!!!
and mum nagged at me to pack my room.
and i hate that.i pride myself on a clean and neat room.
so want to buy a camera.
pink/white/black/yellow, at least 2.5" LCD screen, at least 4 or 5MP, long batt life.and less than $500.
budget budget
please please recommend.
want to get one at the next IT show.
sudd i love gadgets.
so want to get an mp3, if i do jog for the long term.
ha
and i want an external hard disk now that i have only 5GB of space left.
and need back up my thousand and one photos.
and a new handphone.but haven seen one i like.anyway,it's like the last priority.
and so feel like gg bangkok/hk/taiwan soon.
does mickey speak canto in disneyland hk?
gosh.i want to go holiday in May all the way till June!
in the mood.but financially weak.
i want to go with you. let's go let's go.
dictated by the Queen at 9:17 AM
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Saturday, January 06, 2007
many thoughts running
in my mind.
better label them.
so random.
let me see.
1. night at muesum is ok only.
not as entertaining nor that good.
and the only part i actually thot was funny was when the tribal woman looked at the van tracks and said it went east and crashed.
some jade lion was forever in the background moving...
and it's just not very funny overall.
perhaps.too high expectations?
or i just dont like this type of family entertainment movie.
2. went pasar malam
and i was reminded that ruth actually nv tried ramly burger before.
how come ar.i also dunno.
and i bought stickers and a sticker book.
simply irresistable.
yes.it's mickey mouse.
was very bad cos i was dragging a sick boy along
3. found that 2yr old kids are heavy
cannot carry for long
but she is damn cute.really!
4. jb trip
forgot to blog about this.gosh.
so many details.
to keep it short,
i actually only spent $35 there and am proud of myself.
and now we know how impt "hei po" aka crayfish is
bribe the cabbies w a little more $ and can take 5 ppl in a cab
never hestitate too long over a top you really love,
if not u're regret it and be pek chek even if u end up buying shoes u like.
and yes.the above is not describing myself.
and now we know some ppl can try shoes for almost 30mins.
walk around the entire shop trying the new pair,
and end up asking the salesperson for another new pair
pengs.
and i hate the service at secret receipe at city square.
rate it 2 out of 10.
like shit.
5. service
a. sakae sushi at habourfront centre is like shit. totally. dont bother.but well. 3/10.
b. sake sushi at semb shopping ctr (not sun plaza) is fabulous! 8/10.
c. crystal jade kitchen at ps...totally awesome!!!9/10.
and yes.service is very impt to me.cos i dint pay to see you diao me, sulk and be inefficient.
no one will pay money to eat in unhappy setting.so pls.thank you.
i appreciate good service.and even when i work i also give good service k!
6. Lust2Must
woohoo.happily.thanks to fellow fish and amanda!
first customer!!
7. staying in hall
going back to school soon.gosh.and yes.i m staying hall still.
just for the memories and company.
and i guess i can never have the same roomie for two sems consecutively.
but well.
8. reading the allan and babara pease book.
"why men cant listen and why women cant read maps"
not one of those bimbotic books k.
differences are described scientifically.
yet managed to be interesting.best!
interesting, but expensive.so thanks for lending me suan!!
and i took a quiz. only scored 190.
brains wired mainly for women is suppose to be in the range of 180-300.
and brains wired for men is suppose to be 0-150.
and yes.shit.
i am so close to be being a man.
9. my messy room
done with the shoes.
but the entire other cupboards etc is totally CMI.
10. craving to go club.shit!!!
dictated by the Queen at 10:51 PM
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Friday, January 05, 2007
the Shoes family
because blogspot makes it tough to post photos for me
thus see them all here:
http://joyuxsin.multiply.com/photos/album/28?mark_read=joyuxsin:photos:28
dictated by the Queen at 9:47 AM
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the NEW year
reading so many posts of others
i just realised my first post of 2007 is my retarded post on zouk
focusing on their toilet.
oh well.
anyway.
this time we REALLY studied hard for the exams.
and for once
we REALLY DIDNT have to say we need to study harder next sem
BUT.
shit still happens.
average.always average.
y does average begins w an "A"
and excellent begins w an "E"
but both means the opposite.
the last semester to go.
be contended or strive harder?
time factor that guys dont understand YET.
5-7 more sem is ironically nothing compared to the very last sem.
not the kind of person who plans for the long term.
but this time,
i want to make sure things work!
(not in order of importance)1. will end up in europe
2. save money daily. only 4 months to go.
3. settle down with a job
4. pay off my study loan
5. buy less shoes (not buying shoes is just not realistic)
6. tell myself i got >40 pairs of shoes,slippers,heels etc
7. drag myself to jog
8. take up yoga/pilates again
9. keep my hair long
10. less bad attitude
11. family friendship love
dictated by the Queen at 9:20 AM
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Thursday, January 04, 2007
zouk
yes.
laugh.
my first time there.
the crowd is super
gin nalots of young girls swearing in the toilet
which only has two cubicles
and i think from 11pm-1am
i actually had to go toilet 3 times!
and once....
queued till i thot i was gonna pee in my pants.
so i decided to go when i felt it coming....
and not wait till it's already here.
hahahhaha
and there was this girl who was not very conscious..
she actually walked out of the girls toilet and right into the gents.
hahahhahaha
luckily the toilet auntie saw and asked her out.
oh gosh.
and everyone smoked over there..
which made my clothes stank
but well
yest i didnt have to pay a cent.
ladies night.
no entrance
no drinks
no cab fare.
erm.and i m lousy.
easily high.
but this time really drink without worries.
felt very safe.
and it was enjoyable
though i was initially dreading it.
simply cos i dont dance.
but well.
of cos i did.
yipee.
dictated by the Queen at 10:41 AM
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